Been thinking about shit.......

I was watching,Almost famous today and it kind of got my mind runnin'....The movie reminds me of The Eagles and my ol' man.I can remember my dad dressing like these guys.cowboy boots and flannel.It's funny how life comes in circles because i'll be damned if 27 years later I ain't got this shit in my wardrobe.

So,then I start going over shit in my head......I got a job I like finally, and money will come with it but,I cant wait for the next big thing to happen.I want more,i'm never complacent and the next thing I realize is, shit! i'm getting older,is it time to stop looking ahead and just let it all happen.You know,''it''life,settle for what everyone else is doing?becoming and adult and making adult decisions? House,relationship,marriage,blah,blah,blah...

I just got a job back in the city,(chicago) and for two reasons,better money and dating.For every week I have been back in the city,a girl has come along with it,it's like shooting fish in a barrel.In 3 weeks I've met more women then I did 7 years in the suburbs and a they're all single.Last week,the day I bitched about hooking up with older women,I found myself in the company of a 21 year old and had been violated myself.I had to,she reminded me of the lead singer of Pretty girls make graves...it was a weird fetish I had to take care of.It was like this gutter punk,bike messenger,hipster thing.All the things I bitch about and I find myself attracted to it.Think of an M.C biker chick but, in her 20's and a hipster too...I even remember rocker patches but,for a bicycle gang?.....wtf.....

The one thing that all this has made me realize is that i'm going backwards....I'm doing all the shit I shoulda done in my 20's but,now I'm 30 and have the confidence and ego to back up my motivation.Two buddies this week busted my balls or made the comment about settling down and finding an old lady......One friend told me he's gonna pop the question soon and another said he found a girl that he can see marrying....one of them told me that I have to start looking for a girl......I'm thinking why? i'm to selfish,next summer and the summer after that and the next summer until my dick falls off,I wanna ride,ride,ride....if I a had an old lady and tried to do that shit,the same thing would happen as last time,I'd catch her with some fuck head on a bicycle and the only thing i'd get is a nice itch to show my doctor.....

Cabin fever has come early this year,the only thing that kept me sane last year was the promise of V.T 09' and booze....The idea of both exhaust me and I wish for summer and the company of many,many, many more single ladies.....I want to load my ipod with the eagles and blast on a southwestern road.....